wait, whats today? Friday? Ok, so...on Wednesday, I ate total crap food. I must have sampled nearly everyone of the bad-for-you-but-tastes-so-good snacks that my supervisor brought back from the Phillipines....this includes, but is not limited to: peanuts adobo and flamin hot cheetos.
After I cleaned the cheeto residue from my fingers, I felt...well, full for starters. And then I felt a little disappointed. Not because I ate the food, necessarily...but because it felt like cheating and something I needed to hide. Im working hard on allowing myself to have whatever foods I feel like I want...and if they're bad, then in moderation. To combat potential bad decisions (man, I must have paid attention in the self management class) I try to a. educate myself by reading the labels and books that explain just why those ingredients are harmful and b. track EVERYTHING. I wear a bodybugg (by 24 hr Fitness) and the purchase came with a subscription to myapex.com. Ive used the website before, when I had a personal trainer @24...but now, its a tool that I rely on heavily.
So...I thought that I failed, and more so...that I CHOSE to fail. But the real truth is, at the end of that day, I still went to bed with a caloric deficit above 1300. That day was a win...for what it taught me about how far I still have to go and for way I was able to stop myself from spiraling out of control after one, less than desirable, decision. I may have chosen to eat a food that is the epitomy of all thats bad, BUT I also chose not to let that moment define me or affect my journey. as Portia would say: POW!
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