I found a picture of myself yesterday. From approximately 3 weeks before I started this weight loss journey...and I can barely process what I see. It feels like a punch in the stomach...I want to cry and laugh and scream all at the same time...Im embarrassed of what I looked like, and ashamed not only that I let myself get like that, but that I didnt realize how bad it was. The picture literally makes my blood run cold...I want to stop looking at it, but a part of me cant. The scariest thing is that when I see pictures of me now...its how I imagine i looked then. HOw could I have been so wrong? And am I really ready to share this picture?
This is the first time Ive hesitated to post something on here, even knowing how very limited my limited audience is. Ok, be brave. Here goes...
Ive never felt such self-loathing as I do when I look at these pictures. And the relief of not being that person anymore hasnt sunk in yet. I pray that it does soon...and to help me out, Im going to post a picture from this week ;)
It's a different you! I loved you all along ;)
ReplyDeletebut I'm so proud of what you have accomplished, and that you have stuck with it through the not so easy times :)