mayday!

Last weekend I purchased a scale. This is simultaneously a very smart and very risky thing to do. I now have the luxury of weighing in at home on a consistent scale, which is a beneficial weight loss tool...but I also have thousands of self-destructive opportunities to weigh myself in daily, or more, risking the panic and the despondency of flucuation. Let me give you an example. Yesterday morning, I weighed in (Antecedents: early morning, post bathroom, limited clothing) and was relatively pleased to have lost 2 lbs since my last weigh in. And then I had a cheat day, by which i REFUSE to define myself or my journey, btw...and today, under the same antecedents, I weighed myself in again. Now, before I tell you how that went..let me tell you what i KNOW...a pound equals 3500 calories...and my excess was not greater than 2000. thats a gain of about 2/3's of a pound. So...tell why the scale says i gained 1.6 lbs?! I HAVE NO IDEA!!

But its frustrating. And it would be soooooo easy to lapse into self destruction. Believe me, I want to. Here's what Im telling myself:

1. I AM NOT DEFINED BY MY MISSTEPS
2. I eat healthy because I want to. 
3. This is not the end of the journey........there is no end.



So, I called my cousin...my friend and family in ABA and crossfit and generally, all things healthy ;) And she's so grounded and motivational, that i feel a million times better. There are things that are hard in life...things that scare the heck out of me (success, mainly)...and my cousin tackles all of those things seemingly without fear...and definitely without excuses. So, with her as my example, I march forward...upward and WOD-ward ;)